A whole new world is opening up for me, a whole new beginning. School is over. 30 years of teaching and I'm retired. Retired from teaching, but getting ready to slowly dive in to devoting more time to Freshisle Fibers.
It doesn't really feel like retirement yet. It's summer and I always have my summer. The days after the July 1st weekend are always the best. The neighbourhood clears out with people back at work, dear husband is off to work, and the summer looms expectantly ahead. I think the reality of not returning to teaching won't set in until at least August.
The last week of school had another situation arise. My mother has been living with us for a little over a year, but has been slowly declining and decided that she wanted to go to a nursing home. We didn't encourage her and we tried not to discourage her either. It is her decision. As timing would have it, we received the call that a room was available last Wednesday and my husband and brother moved her in on Friday. My last day of school and her first day in the nursing home!
The caregiving is far from over and it's only been a few days, but we are starting to realize that we may just have our lives back. It's been almost four years that we've been caring for one or the other of my parents. When dad died, we dealt with our lives changing but the caregiving for my mother continued. This is different. I'm no longer the 24 hours a day, every day, primary source of care. Add no school commitments to that and it's a strange feeling.
Sadness, anger, and the joy of freedom all at the same time. I'm an emotional wreck! I think it will take some time to adjust and the good part is, now I have the time to adjust. Some time for me.
And because this is supposed to be a knitting blog, perhaps some time for knitting. In progress, Corinne cardigan from Knitty 2011 with self-striping Bernat Mosaic.